Were all so messed up. It is the human race that has become so complex and consuming that we don't take time to catch up and learn to deal with things. Everyone has issues. Family in particular is pretty messed up. Some have the need to scontrol things beyond their reach, suffucate others. Its this pressure from others that builds up over the years and creates issues. You gotta relese it one way or another. My outlet it many different things. Indesisivness, randomness, marijuananess, being someone I'm not. My inability to let anyone in is my biggest issue. I close the world off like im ok.

And it is with this breath of fresh air tonight that I sing for the first time
My song will unite with my happy heart and together they gleam with joy.
I have found my counterpart, my other half, my grand chime
What I was looking for I now see
That this person I needed was just the better part of me

I AM waiting for something amazing to happen. and i know i need to do something in order to make that sparkle happen. :)

I can have the world at my fingertips. I can do whatever I want. I am free and happy. Something holds me back. Desire to keep things constant. Change is diffucult, but it needs to happen. Once it happends, something great can come along, if you call for it. Vison it.
All these things can be acheived in this life, but is it worth it? Without someone by your side pushing you along and loving you, I dont know if anything is worth it. Live for love, to find it to work at it and to conquer it. Becasue in the end, no one wants to live their last years alone.