the one thing that i long for which should be the easiest to acheive is not in my grasp. it is not a man, it is not a thing, it is not sucess or money. i grew up with it, i know it inside and out. i know where it came from and i affect the way that it works. but i cannot grasp it, i long for the day when i can. one day we will be close, know each others secrets and desires, get drunk together and be each others bridesmaids. but until then.

keep family close. closer then anyone. in the end your family is all that you can depend on. they know you. they love you. they are part of you. hang on to them and never let them go. once they go it is hard to get them back.